Never Good Enough

So every night, for the past week or so, I have had vivid nightmares. The medics suggested it might be the high levels of medicine that I am taking, but it is not pleasant nor conducive to sleeping soundly and at the correct times of the night. The other night, I woke from a nightmare […]

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Thread

It floats towards the mind like a silken thread spun by a spider. Try to catch the thread of the story, the idea, the poem before it breaks into nothing. Be gentle as you weave it into the pattern that suits this moment, this image, this truth, this tale. Gradually the beauty takes form. Images […]

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Back again

It has been some time since I have been able to write about my experience with my black dog. Mainly because taking care of my black dog took most of my efforts in the past few months. Stress and anxiety over never being good enough, depression and wanting to die and being too scared to […]

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Conspiracy Connections Everywhen and Everywhere

‘You’re Paranoid. You’re Paranoid. They’re coming to get you.’ The best way to describe my experience of paranoia in July 2015 was that everything suddenly clicked in my mind. Every detail of my life suddenly made sense; an alternative explanation and perspective started to dominate my thoughts. Everything and everyone throughout my life had a connection to the conspiracy threatening me. It was […]

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