I was going to title this blog with three words: “I am sorry.” Three small words with heavy connotations. It is so easy to fall into the trap of routinely saying “I am sorry”, when there are better options. Yet sometimes saying “I am sorry” can soften the disappointment that some people feel when you […]Read more "Thank you"
So every night, for the past week or so, I have had vivid nightmares. The medics suggested it might be the high levels of medicine that I am taking, but it is not pleasant nor conducive to sleeping soundly and at the correct times of the night. The other night, I woke from a nightmare […]Read more "Never Good Enough"
It has been some time since I have been able to write about my experience with my black dog. Mainly because taking care of my black dog took most of my efforts in the past few months. Stress and anxiety over never being good enough, depression and wanting to die and being too scared to […]Read more "Back again"
After a lifetime of living with depression, it was not depression that almost killed me, but paranoia. Over the course of about a year of working on time-consuming experiments with the ever-present threat of the end of my research contract and work-sponsored UK visa, I became more and more convinced that I was being secretly filmed in the […]Read more "If I rest, if I think inward, I go mad – Sylvia Plath"
People who meet me generally remark on two things: my bubbly optimism and my proactive attitude to getting things done. Both very positive features and explain a bit about how I managed to get to where I am today. Yet, as my father often remarked, you should never judge a book by its cover. I […]Read more "“Exposure to recovery narratives can be transformative.” Professor Mike Slade"